As I studied the Word recently, the Lord put me in this passage of scripture in Mark:
“24 For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].
25 And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and [a]let it drop (leave it, let it go), in order that your Father Who is in heaven may also forgive you your [own] failings and shortcomings and let them drop.
26 [b]But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your failings and shortcomings” (Mark 11:24-26, AMPC).
As I read that passage, I realized that the Lord was giving me a key to getting my prayers answered. I asked Holy Spirit to reveal to me anybody that I had not as yet forgiven. For a few seconds, it was silent, and then I heard, “YOURSELF”.
I was stunned! Hadn’t I already done that long ago? Regardless, I went into the filing cabinet in my heart, purposely searching for things for which I hadn’t forgiven myself. I started pulling out file after file, all of them empty, and then…I saw some folders that contained things that I had done wrong. The more I looked, the more I found! Suddenly, there were so many of them. The folders were overflowing with times that I had let other people down, times that I had missed the mark in so many areas. I started to feel really remorseful, full of regret.
After a moment or two of this, overwhelmed, I said, “Father, HOW do I forgive myself? HOW can I possibly forgive all my failings and shortcomings?”
Immediately, I heard, “Give yourself a marshmallow!”
My entire body literally shook when He said that, and instantly I was catapulted into a vision. In it, I was holding a stick from a tree in front of me. It looked a little like a wooden stake at the end. Jesus was with me, slightly fuzzy and out of focus. He grabbed the pointed end of my stick and popped a marshmallow onto it.
I then held the marshmallow over a campfire, and watched as it started to brown to that perfect, golden, toasted marshmallow color. However, instead of pulling it out and putting it in my mouth, I continued to hold the marshmallow over the fire. It turned black, caught fire and burned. Eventually it dropped off the stick into the campfire beneath it.
That was all He showed me, but that was all I needed! And it’s all YOU need, too!
You see, too many times we pull that marshmallow of “unforgiveness” off and stick it back in our mouths, ingesting it once again. The enemy is altogether too happy to come along and feed us his lies over and over again. He will remind us of our wrong doings and shortcomings just as many times as we’ll buy into them, eating them up.
In this vision, the Lord showed me that this marshmallow was ROASTED and BURNED UP in the fires of purification through which I, and many others in the body of Christ, have gone – allowing it to DROP off my stick into the fire.
You see, the part of the scriptures above that most of us understand is to FORGIVE; however, we simply don’t follow all the way through and allow the matter to DROP completely. Sometimes we hold a grudge; others, we “say” we forgive, but really do not. Other times, the unforgiveness simply gets buried somewhere in the “filing cabinet” of our hearts. This allows it to resurface at some point down the road.
In the vision, and in my heart, this time the marshmallow fell off the stick, dropped into the fire, and was burned up. So was my unforgiveness toward myself dropped into the flames, consumed forever by His fiery love.
“29 For our God [is indeed] a consuming fire” (Hebrews 12:29, AMPC).
The moral of the story is this: The next time the enemy comes to feed you your past transgressions – which incidentally, have already been forgiven (see Ephesians 1:7) — and tries to stir up unforgiveness inside, don’t swallow his lies. Instead, give yourself a marshmallow! Just remember to let it drop.
Burning with His Love!